I am ending everything tonight! Looking back at my old posts, for this past 1 year, almost every posts was about her, FOOLISH I would say. It feels nice to get over it. But getting over it doesn’t means starting over. I am stuck in-between of these 2. Sort of moved on and not move on. 8 more months to the big day. I am not prepared for what comes after it at all. What should I do, where should I go, how should I live my life after. Questions. Sometimes there are more pressing matters in life other than love.

Here is the list of what I think is more important in life than love.

1. What am I going to eat for my next meal.

2. What underwear I am going to wear.

3. What should I put as my facebook “whats on my mind”

4. Will I make it home in time for WoW raids.

5. What time should I wake up tomorrow

6. When will I have 4  DIGITS numbers in my 4 DI.GITS(GET IT? DECIMALS?) bank account’

SO MY POINT IS, SO MANY THINGS TO WORRY, WHY WORRY ABOUT LOVE. LOVE IS LIKE THE LOWEST PRIORITY IN LIFE. Its kay to not have it.

There is just nothing to talk about these days. Everything seems so dull and grey. Once in awhile, I got strucked by some ideas what to write in here, but when I got home, I would be just to lazy to type anything. Sometimes when I heard similar names of hers, my heart did jerk abit here and there but I guessed I am over it for real.

Jonathan is bad. He agreed to my stupid ideas and played along with me, what a role model sgt.

Sry for lack of updates, nothing to say. Life ain’t good but still goes on. Leaving this blog empty awhile I guess.

Sleep deprived. World of Warcraft requires too much attention, my eyes are blurred, my fingers are tired, my back is aching and my legs are numb. I thought I could sleep anywhere, other than on my computer chair while playing World of Warcraft. I was wrong. Just that day, after guard duty, I came back, being a smart alec, thought I could withstand from not sleeping till night time. Big mistake, playing half-way through with my friends, I just knocked out. When I woke up, my forehead was flat on the tables, arms by the side. I slept on the table for more than an hour. Freaking amazing. On train, I could be unconsious from kembangan onwards, and woke up with a shock at clementi, happened for the pass 3 days. I could fall asleep at paya lebar, after my friends left the train, and woke up at simei. I need proper rest. Don’t tell me to stop playing games, its impossible. I would just stone in front of the computer screen the whole night, its like an addiction and a happy pill, that kept me from thinking too much. I need to sleep before I knocked myself out infront of the computer again.

Eve was not taken out of adam’s head to be top by him,
neither out of his feet to be trampled by him,
But out to his side to be equal with him.
Under his arms to be protected by him
And near his heart to be loved by him.

Futurealistc chio bu

Chiobu

I really really need to save up money for a new computer so that I could play World of Warcraft more efficiently and scales greater height in game using my new level 80 priest, Jocelyn.

I realised for my situation, in order to save money for a new computer, I need to be as fuck up as a fucked up person x2. $450 a month isn’t really enough for me to save at all as I need to pay for my internet and phone bills, plus my freaking daily expenses like breakfast and dinner. Not adding those cigarettes which I need to buy like once per two days.

I have decided. I will not buy cigarettes at all. I will just go to camp, when I see people at the smoking point, I will just go there and stare at them smoke. Just keep staring, no need to ask, until they feel paiseh enough to offer me a stick.

“No la, I don’t want smoke, I trying to quit, so I came here to zhuo bo nia.”

“Take la, don’t need paiseh, just take and smoke only.”

You see are, mostly people are asssssholes. They won’t offer you sticks if you tell them to spare them, but they will throw sticks at you if you tell them you want to quit smoking because they are sick people. They can’t kick the addiction and they don’t want people around them to kick too. Smart move right. That will save me damn bloody lots of money.

To save money, you not only need to be fuck up to the friends around you, you need to be fuck up to your family members around you too. In this case, my dad. Dinner was never cook and everyday, I had to dig my own pocket for money to eat. Everyone needs to eat, even my dad. And when I am eating with him, I don’t have to pay a single cent. So everyday, before I reach bedok, I will just call him and pretend to be a good son, saying I want to eat dinner with him. BAM, 2birds1son. Father and son relationship+++, my money also +++. Good idea.

As for weekends, since only guys ask me to go out, why bother going out. I should just stay at home and play computer games, watch movie online, eat instant noodles, drink plain water, swwoooosh, pass 1 day already. I don’t need a life since I lost mine sometime ago. I need to Shen Shen Shen so I could buy a new computer and I can Shen Shen Shen more than Xiang Yun after I buy the new computer because I would just stay at home all day, sitting on my computer chair, typing away. Like my friend said, If you got nothing else better to do, you play World of  Warcraft, you got something better do, that would also be playing World of Warcraft.

Hello nerd life, here I come. I am NOT going to go out anymore.

Funny why all people that search corruption came to my blog. I fucking stoned these days. I look at her pictures my heart still got the sour sour feeling, sigh. She seems to got some issues with herself, always wanted to ask, typed out the message already but I would just stare at the phone screen for a few minutes, and press the red phone button. I need to get my drive back, its lost somewhere with my shattered heart, piece it together and i know, it will be back.

Right now, I will just live my days as if I got a permanent hangover until that day, when I thought of that special someone, my face would drew back a smile on its own again.

Will try to be happier the next time I post something. Try…

I.FREAKING.LAUGH.DAMN.BLOODYHARDTHATMYSTOMACHCRAMP WHEN I SAW THIS PIECE OF NEWS. HAPPENED IN RUSSIA.

http://russiatoday.ru/Top_News/2009-04-14/Hairdresser_turns_robber_into_sex-slave.html?fullstory